What was your pain?
“It was mostly anxiety — I believe my anxiety caused me to have an external and internal mask. On the external I was ‘successful’ – excelling at sports and in school, but my internal life was defined by negative emotions and feelings and anxious days and nights.
Anxiety is experienced both physically and emotionally. When anxiety attacks strike it’s as if someone pulled an internal fire alarm without there being a fire. My physical and emotional system would go into overload as my anxiety heightened. There were endless and constant false alarms – panic all the time. It could happen in the middle of class, with a date, in the middle of sports, or while I was sleeping. The attacks occurred unexpectedly with no rhyme or reason. It was a physical feeling – shaking, trembling, that kind of thing, and the emotional feeling created despair, shock, and loss of confidence.”